I am on my morning refreshing stroll through my town.
I see a few women coming out from a new place that was recently opened and kept me curious: What it would be about?
I always check for new studios in the town where I live because I am on a search. Any new place could bring me closer to my dream, and be a possible place for me to teach something that I love and passionate about. I quickly picked through the opened door and saw women lifting weights and doing the indoor speed cycling…
Nope! Sigh.
That is not what I am looking for. I keep going. There are so many signs and so many studios, small and big. They are growing like mushrooms after the rain in our small town. Fitness, strength, speed, muscles, sweat and power!
I feel some growing tension in my body after reading all the posts and observing tight and tough bodies.
Another woman emerges from a fitness center and walks toward me. She wipes off all her sweat with a towel. Her face is red, and her eyes are gazing somewhere, but definitely not at me. She is not on the same street as me for sure. Her body has undergone lots of pulling and pushing, lifting and forcing, and getting rid of something she doesn’t want in her system. She seems relieved, though, that she is out, maybe because the hard work is over and her today’s “to-do” list is shorter, but her step is still heavy, and she is still not present to her surroundings…
I want to meet her, but she passes by me as if I do not exist. I know how it feels to rush and be done with my list for the day. But I am changing my lifestyle now.
I want to be more intimate with myself and aware of what is around me. I want to care about what is in front of me now.
This woman made me contemplate a part within myself that remains disconnected from my journey towards soul fulfillment; a part still entrenched in sweat and hurry. I need her on board and to align with me.
I need her to awaken and stop chasing and pursuing the imprinted image of how she should look or act. Undoubtedly, she requires support. I require assistance in encouraging her to pause. She embodies such strength and power that I feel inadequate to accomplish this task alone.
Where can I find some help?
As I stroll through my small town, I search for a center where women like me seek more intimacy, tenderness, and a different kind of care and love. I yearn for self-love. I crave a gentler approach to my female body. I long for a deeper connection with my own feminine power of intuition and wisdom. I am open to something greater than my societal and materialistic programming, ready to fill my emptiness with something eternal, like pure spirit.
QiGong practice offers me some of that, but where could I enhance and share it? With whom? Rumi said, ‘What you seek is seeking you.’ I hope to soon discover a place where QiGong and other holistic practices for integrating the Divine Feminine will be embraced. For now, I am still searching…
P. S.
In 2020 I finally found a newly opened Holistic Life Community center where all women get the support they need.
If you are seeking a loving and caring atmosphere to heal your feminine, go there and you will be nurtured in a very genuine and loving way.
